you're my guardian dinosaur

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths

Friday, May 1, 2009

Silent Tears
By Justine B. Deitz
My future is cloudy,
My past so happy,
At this fork in the road,
I don't know what direction to take.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I squeeze my eyes shut tight,
Hoping they will go away,
But it only makes more spill out.
I hope to fall asleep,
Then morning comes,
They're still there,
Accompanied by the pain.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I reluctantly go on with life,
But not a soul ever notices,
For my tears are so silent.
I just wana know, if I were a nobody, would you still treat me in this manner?

i feel like i've been left behind in the crowd,
like everyone has been watching soem tv series
and i feel asleep halfway thru...

i think we're drifting apart
it's so hard to talk to you.
i dont want us to
especially since we're in different classes
it's quite hard to keep up with your pace of life i guess.
idk.
maybe it's because i dont know u well enough
maybe it was my fault for being so dao earlier,
but i guess i had my reasons.
or maybe not.
im confused.
i dont even know you anymore ):
you dont even say hi back.
you just ignore me.
and it hurts ... alot,
especially when the scenes of us laughing like crazy pass through my memory
you just glance at me and glance away.
well,sorry.i guess i never knew you well.
i dont know why but i feel like we're cold-war-ing
it's so weird.
you're always with them nowadays,
i mean u always have been with them...but not tt close
and it's quite awkward talking to you now
because i run out of things to say.
i open my mouth,but nothing comes out.
so its filled with awkward silence ..
maybe its cos im extremely boring and cos you just wanna go away.
talking to u on msn feels like i'm talking to the wall
i dont see the difference,
i say hi- no reply
i ask can u help me with the geog pt-all u said was,''what?!i haven started"
sometimes i feel like giving up.
but because of what we were in the past,i refuse to.
it cuts me real deep when i realise how close we were last year
and when we first met each other in pri 2
but i dont know what to do,
maybe i'll just continue letting it hurt.
you dont even bother to look at me...when i ask u sth,u look at the floor
i don't know if you still bother and stuff though i hope you do.
i miss you, i miss your character and personality last time
and it seems like you've changed alot,
to a whole different/new person
and i dont know what to do. D:
i still recall the way we went crazy over the littlest things,
i miss your wonderful self
but i think you've forgotten about all the awesome times we had together.
you're just maturing with every step you take,
i'm really sry for the attitude i gave during trngs,
the stupid mistakes i make when we were doubles partners and
the times when smoke(wu jiao lian)pulled my hair and hit my head,
and i was super pissed and irritated, you told me to just ignore him
i remember u saying this more then thrice...
you just touch me with your courage and your wonderful smile
please, bring some light back into my life.
For i do not want to lose yet another friend...
i love you,and i noe u noe who i'm refering to.

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths,
我能坚持下去吗?
wo lei le

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Sherilyn Tan/sherry

the gal: She turned 13 in the year 2008,and you may give her a b’dae pressie on 21st July. She loves and misses her primary school, CHIJ ST NICHOLAS GIRLS’ SCHOOL and her beloved class SEXy(6C) and being a six-cherrytean was simply unforgettable. She has graduated to the one and only prestigious and affluent RAFFLES GIRLS’ SCHOOL(SECONDARY) and is now the ever optimistic and enthusiastic player of RGTT!
her loves:She loves anything and anyone cool! She loves being with everyone who is kind and helpful. She fell in love with the colour purple and black when she was 12 and continues to like sky-blue and hot pink at the same time. She also likes cute cuddly and nice-to-hug toys, and she eats lots of junk food. She enjoys reading interesting books which can improve her school work, msning, reading other’s blogs and watching Chinese shows. She, too, loves the feeling of accomplishment. Times she got praised or done good deeds were times which are kept in her heart forever; and she loves standing out from others. Last but not least, she loves table tennis which is her passion. She always promises herself to train hard, put in all she can and never give up no matter how bad things get.
her hates:She hates getting bad results in school and hates to lose in terms of sports. She hates her parents’ consistent nagging and she can’t stand being ignored. She hates impatient, selfish and act-cool people who only thinks of themselves and she can’t stand being reprimanded and staying in a non-air-con room.And betrayers!
her dream:Her dream overall GPA Is 3.2 for every school year coming and hopes to improve her table tennis skills. She wishes for a TRUE friend by her side who will always be there for her to celebrate happy times and to cry over unhappy moments. She also wishes to get into a triple science class in year 2010 and dreams to study medicine when she gets older. “When I grow up, I wanna be a star, drive nice cars…” She wants to pamper herself with everything in the future. She hopes to become as good in everything as ------.(her admirer)
Her personal quotes: “The hard work you put in will always pay off, just wait and see.” She believes in it. This is another one: ”When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.” This does sound pessimistic but it’s reality. There will always be obstacles in life and lastly: “don’t worry, be happy.”