you're my guardian dinosaur

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths

Friday, May 1, 2009

Silent Tears
By Justine B. Deitz
My future is cloudy,
My past so happy,
At this fork in the road,
I don't know what direction to take.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I squeeze my eyes shut tight,
Hoping they will go away,
But it only makes more spill out.
I hope to fall asleep,
Then morning comes,
They're still there,
Accompanied by the pain.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I reluctantly go on with life,
But not a soul ever notices,
For my tears are so silent.
I just wana know, if I were a nobody, would you still treat me in this manner?

i feel like i've been left behind in the crowd,
like everyone has been watching soem tv series
and i feel asleep halfway thru...

i think we're drifting apart
it's so hard to talk to you.
i dont want us to
especially since we're in different classes
it's quite hard to keep up with your pace of life i guess.
idk.
maybe it's because i dont know u well enough
maybe it was my fault for being so dao earlier,
but i guess i had my reasons.
or maybe not.
im confused.
i dont even know you anymore ):
you dont even say hi back.
you just ignore me.
and it hurts ... alot,
especially when the scenes of us laughing like crazy pass through my memory
you just glance at me and glance away.
well,sorry.i guess i never knew you well.
i dont know why but i feel like we're cold-war-ing
it's so weird.
you're always with them nowadays,
i mean u always have been with them...but not tt close
and it's quite awkward talking to you now
because i run out of things to say.
i open my mouth,but nothing comes out.
so its filled with awkward silence ..
maybe its cos im extremely boring and cos you just wanna go away.
talking to u on msn feels like i'm talking to the wall
i dont see the difference,
i say hi- no reply
i ask can u help me with the geog pt-all u said was,''what?!i haven started"
sometimes i feel like giving up.
but because of what we were in the past,i refuse to.
it cuts me real deep when i realise how close we were last year
and when we first met each other in pri 2
but i dont know what to do,
maybe i'll just continue letting it hurt.
you dont even bother to look at me...when i ask u sth,u look at the floor
i don't know if you still bother and stuff though i hope you do.
i miss you, i miss your character and personality last time
and it seems like you've changed alot,
to a whole different/new person
and i dont know what to do. D:
i still recall the way we went crazy over the littlest things,
i miss your wonderful self
but i think you've forgotten about all the awesome times we had together.
you're just maturing with every step you take,
i'm really sry for the attitude i gave during trngs,
the stupid mistakes i make when we were doubles partners and
the times when smoke(wu jiao lian)pulled my hair and hit my head,
and i was super pissed and irritated, you told me to just ignore him
i remember u saying this more then thrice...
you just touch me with your courage and your wonderful smile
please, bring some light back into my life.
For i do not want to lose yet another friend...
i love you,and i noe u noe who i'm refering to.

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths,
我能坚持下去吗?
wo lei le

I LOVE YOU 5:29 AM

ping pang qiu

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Why didn i PING during the match wif Ruimin?!-so dont understand myself-
was as if i was just trng or dreaming-.-wad's wrong wif me these days?
Just because they're pro doesn mean i cant beat them.
I tried for the under 15 top 8 wif a xiao qiu girl and lost 3-1,but again,i din noe wad was on my mind then...
wtf,i really need to fan xing yi xia.I'm so tired yet so angry wif myself,ruimin's match was so fast just with a blink of the eye and we were shaking hands,i din try tt was wad upsetted me.
i was glad u din give me tt attitude again, i love your smile esp when we shook hands.Thanks.
I've indeed gained experience from the match wif ruimin though i wasn trying my best.
When you look me in the eyes,it was scary,just like you always are.
My dearest senior i hope you'll remember me even after you graduate.love ya!

Come to think of it, I am really upset at the thought of all the sec4s leaving us this year. I do know how early it is to think of this but....How will the team be like without them? I bet if any sec4s read this, they will be smiling ego-ingly in front of the computer, but at the same time, feel sad.(Dont think i forgot RUIMIN! "hey without MY batch,RGTT cant get double champs lorr"shall we prove our dear sec 4s wrong?can we?we'll try)Sigh. It's only when I entered RGTT, when I truely felt the meaning of the phrase "team spirit". RGTT brought me to tears,cried along wif me(opps i make it sound like a nice thing,i'm truely sorry and i know you all know where i'm coming from, esp C div'08 thank you all so much for the card Siling if you remember,love ya.I really hoped you guys have forgiven me though it has left a scar in me that i will never forget but i'm truely apologetic bout my 2 matches which i lost to your horror.sorry RGTT and i will try to make up for my wrong-doings. but thanks C div'08 for your comfort and motivation u gave for me to carry on), shared moments of happiness tgt. We were always as ONE. You know its not like any other teams just like when I was in st nicks. I mean yes I was always in a team playing, laughing, cheering and so on. However, that isnt what I thought team spirit ought to be.Being a captain,it was easy just saying(i ordered,i'm sorry juniors) and they obediently listened and obeyed,they were afraid of me. haha,brings back happy memories.But i never did feel the zest to win and to sorrow when i lost in pri sch as we were very scattered.(we alienated many)Now i feel the NEED to win for the sch to bring glory to rgtt. At least I can say those were in the past, I din't CRY as a team, I din't really look forward to school trainings, coz they were all boring. haha. But RGTT is different, it's UNIQUE. MY BATCH is oh so fantastic!love you WEILIN N HANZHEN!(you 2 ducky and crabby)juniors are so loving and seniors esp sec 4s are just oh my gosh,i tend to get stunned whenever the pros come for sch trngs(Syl,Ruimin,Sam,Kaiying,etc).Thanks for being there laughing and of course staying suddenly quiet when coaches comes near,trng has been fantastic. oh man why am I talking about these? Oh-wells,I just wana say Sec4'09 you guys are FABULOUS! <3
My life evolves around acedemics and table tennis, is that wad i want?wad i hope to do well in?

Labels: studies or table tennis

I LOVE YOU 8:07 AM

i love you?

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way About me
It's just too much Just too much
Why do I keep running From the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really Just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin' tryin' to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away Goin' away
Are we just friends Is there more Is there more
Why do I keep running From the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized And I just got to know
Cause I'm tryin' tryin' to walk awayBut I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' awayGoin' awayGoin' away........

Labels: is it just a crush

I LOVE YOU 6:58 AM

mediacorp

Friday, February 13, 2009

Last sat,Yihui and I went mediacorp to flim a new show coz i'm from mediacorp and they needed another gal so i picked yihui,i'm so nice rite(coming out in april,must go watch!),ping pang yuan!<3>The storyline is hilarious and the fliming is crazy,esp Akira.,he joker.The qiu yuan were teaching him how to say SHOU!coz he just couldn get it rite,first he went "shoa!"then they were like damn pissed wif him after a few trys,then after somemore tries he tried "soak!"this was super funny.yihui and i laughed till our sides ache lar,omg.and after all the tiring fliming,yihui and I decided to take a few pics with the handsomes:dai yang tian and joshua.
Yihui was too frightened(or actually busy admiring his beautiful face)to ask him for permission so in the end i had to do the job.I went to ask leck hui for help then she was like 'no need scared one la aiyo,he's super nice and friendly one:)(he is,very)She whispered this in my ear and told me to say it to him,"dai yang tian, ni ke bu ke yi gen wo men pai zao"but! somehow he has some magical ears and he heard her whisper,cool rite.Futhermore, he was packing his stuff, back facing us. Then later he turned around, just when I finally mustered enough courage to ask, then he was like "wo ting dao le. hao le, xian zai ke yi pai le" T.T its damn lame, but super funny and paiseh.Here are the pics lol.

DAI YANG TIAN!<33>

jOSHUA!<3

YIHUI AND ME at the reception counter.it's prettaye.lol.

Labels: i love you

I LOVE YOU 8:35 AM

i don't know if it's a _____

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

'My will shall shape my future.
Whether i fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own.
I am the force; I can clear any obstacles before me or i can be lost in the maze.
My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only i hold the key to my destiny'

i'm sry i've misinterpreted you.apologies!but i'm sure u still don't knoe i'm refering to you:)i really admire your talents when will i ever reach that standard ...dearest snr.i praise the lord for bringing you to my life to share my love with you:)don't leave me hanging on the wall

Labels: my destiny lies in your hands dear

I LOVE YOU 6:19 AM

oh dear!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

wat am i to do? Having a fever at this point in time is so unexpected. Zonals are around the corner(2nd feb)and i have a temperature of 37.6. But sick or not,DEAR DEAR coaches will nv allow ME to skip trngs... so oh well,trng tmr will be as usual,with no life.as if zombies are playing since once we open our mouths to speck sth(even if relevent),"xiao gu niang,ni zai zhang cai zui ba,teng tiao hui lai de orh." oh wadever.heh.okay la hope i will still be able to concentrate in class tmr,if the fever continues,but hope not:)alrite,end off le,cya.

do u noe i meant everything i said...even if u don't understand:(

Labels: fever

I LOVE YOU 4:55 AM

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

i just realised tt many snrs don't like me:(wad did i do wrong again...i always make u guys angry and disappointed in me i think.wave to you in sch and u pretend u don't noe me and even whisper i-dunno-wad to ur clique.oh mann hope u at least acknowledge my existence.sry if u think i expect too much...
maybe i've fallen for u...
and i think i have..

I LOVE YOU 4:36 AM

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Sherilyn Tan/sherry

the gal: She turned 13 in the year 2008,and you may give her a b’dae pressie on 21st July. She loves and misses her primary school, CHIJ ST NICHOLAS GIRLS’ SCHOOL and her beloved class SEXy(6C) and being a six-cherrytean was simply unforgettable. She has graduated to the one and only prestigious and affluent RAFFLES GIRLS’ SCHOOL(SECONDARY) and is now the ever optimistic and enthusiastic player of RGTT!
her loves:She loves anything and anyone cool! She loves being with everyone who is kind and helpful. She fell in love with the colour purple and black when she was 12 and continues to like sky-blue and hot pink at the same time. She also likes cute cuddly and nice-to-hug toys, and she eats lots of junk food. She enjoys reading interesting books which can improve her school work, msning, reading other’s blogs and watching Chinese shows. She, too, loves the feeling of accomplishment. Times she got praised or done good deeds were times which are kept in her heart forever; and she loves standing out from others. Last but not least, she loves table tennis which is her passion. She always promises herself to train hard, put in all she can and never give up no matter how bad things get.
her hates:She hates getting bad results in school and hates to lose in terms of sports. She hates her parents’ consistent nagging and she can’t stand being ignored. She hates impatient, selfish and act-cool people who only thinks of themselves and she can’t stand being reprimanded and staying in a non-air-con room.And betrayers!
her dream:Her dream overall GPA Is 3.2 for every school year coming and hopes to improve her table tennis skills. She wishes for a TRUE friend by her side who will always be there for her to celebrate happy times and to cry over unhappy moments. She also wishes to get into a triple science class in year 2010 and dreams to study medicine when she gets older. “When I grow up, I wanna be a star, drive nice cars…” She wants to pamper herself with everything in the future. She hopes to become as good in everything as ------.(her admirer)
Her personal quotes: “The hard work you put in will always pay off, just wait and see.” She believes in it. This is another one: ”When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.” This does sound pessimistic but it’s reality. There will always be obstacles in life and lastly: “don’t worry, be happy.”