Sherry

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths

2009-05-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

Silent Tears
By Justine B. Deitz
My future is cloudy,
My past so happy,
At this fork in the road,
I don't know what direction to take.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I squeeze my eyes shut tight,
Hoping they will go away,
But it only makes more spill out.
I hope to fall asleep,
Then morning comes,
They're still there,
Accompanied by the pain.
Silent tears stream down my face,
I reluctantly go on with life,
But not a soul ever notices,
For my tears are so silent.
I just wana know, if I were a nobody, would you still treat me in this manner?

i feel like i've been left behind in the crowd,
like everyone has been watching soem tv series
and i feel asleep halfway thru...

i think we're drifting apart
it's so hard to talk to you.
i dont want us to
especially since we're in different classes
it's quite hard to keep up with your pace of life i guess.
idk.
maybe it's because i dont know u well enough
maybe it was my fault for being so dao earlier,
but i guess i had my reasons.
or maybe not.
im confused.
i dont even know you anymore ):
you dont even say hi back.
you just ignore me.
and it hurts ... alot,
especially when the scenes of us laughing like crazy pass through my memory
you just glance at me and glance away.
well,sorry.i guess i never knew you well.
i dont know why but i feel like we're cold-war-ing
it's so weird.
you're always with them nowadays,
i mean u always have been with them...but not tt close
and it's quite awkward talking to you now
because i run out of things to say.
i open my mouth,but nothing comes out.
so its filled with awkward silence ..
maybe its cos im extremely boring and cos you just wanna go away.
talking to u on msn feels like i'm talking to the wall
i dont see the difference,
i say hi- no reply
i ask can u help me with the geog pt-all u said was,''what?!i haven started"
sometimes i feel like giving up.
but because of what we were in the past,i refuse to.
it cuts me real deep when i realise how close we were last year
and when we first met each other in pri 2
but i dont know what to do,
maybe i'll just continue letting it hurt.
you dont even bother to look at me...when i ask u sth,u look at the floor
i don't know if you still bother and stuff though i hope you do.
i miss you, i miss your character and personality last time
and it seems like you've changed alot,
to a whole different/new person
and i dont know what to do. D:
i still recall the way we went crazy over the littlest things,
i miss your wonderful self
but i think you've forgotten about all the awesome times we had together.
you're just maturing with every step you take,
i'm really sry for the attitude i gave during trngs,
the stupid mistakes i make when we were doubles partners and
the times when smoke(wu jiao lian)pulled my hair and hit my head,
and i was super pissed and irritated, you told me to just ignore him
i remember u saying this more then thrice...
you just touch me with your courage and your wonderful smile
please, bring some light back into my life.
For i do not want to lose yet another friend...
i love you,and i noe u noe who i'm refering to.

i guess i'm the only one sinking into the depths,
我能坚持下去吗?
wo lei le

ping pang qiu

2009-03-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

Why didn i PING during the match wif Ruimin?!-so dont understand myself-
was as if i was just trng or dreaming-.-wad's wrong wif me these days?
Just because they're pro doesn mean i cant beat them.
I tried for the under 15 top 8 wif a xiao qiu girl and lost 3-1,but again,i din noe wad was on my mind then...
wtf,i really need to fan xing yi xia.I'm so tired yet so angry wif myself,ruimin's match was so fast just with a blink of the eye and we were shaking hands,i din try tt was wad upsetted me.
i was glad u din give me tt attitude again, i love your smile esp when we shook hands.Thanks.
I've indeed gained experience from the match wif ruimin though i wasn trying my best.
When you look me in the eyes,it was scary,just like you always are.
My dearest senior i hope you'll remember me even after you graduate.love ya!

Come to think of it, I am really upset at the thought of all the sec4s leaving us this year. I do know how early it is to think of this but....How will the team be like without them? I bet if any sec4s read this, they will be smiling ego-ingly in front of the computer, but at the same time, feel sad.(Dont think i forgot RUIMIN! "hey without MY batch,RGTT cant get double champs lorr"shall we prove our dear sec 4s wrong?can we?we'll try)Sigh. It's only when I entered RGTT, when I truely felt the meaning of the phrase "team spirit". RGTT brought me to tears,cried along wif me(opps i make it sound like a nice thing,i'm truely sorry and i know you all know where i'm coming from, esp C div'08 thank you all so much for the card Siling if you remember,love ya.I really hoped you guys have forgiven me though it has left a scar in me that i will never forget but i'm truely apologetic bout my 2 matches which i lost to your horror.sorry RGTT and i will try to make up for my wrong-doings. but thanks C div'08 for your comfort and motivation u gave for me to carry on), shared moments of happiness tgt. We were always as ONE. You know its not like any other teams just like when I was in st nicks. I mean yes I was always in a team playing, laughing, cheering and so on. However, that isnt what I thought team spirit ought to be.Being a captain,it was easy just saying(i ordered,i'm sorry juniors) and they obediently listened and obeyed,they were afraid of me. haha,brings back happy memories.But i never did feel the zest to win and to sorrow when i lost in pri sch as we were very scattered.(we alienated many)Now i feel the NEED to win for the sch to bring glory to rgtt. At least I can say those were in the past, I din't CRY as a team, I din't really look forward to school trainings, coz they were all boring. haha. But RGTT is different, it's UNIQUE. MY BATCH is oh so fantastic!love you WEILIN N HANZHEN!(you 2 ducky and crabby)juniors are so loving and seniors esp sec 4s are just oh my gosh,i tend to get stunned whenever the pros come for sch trngs(Syl,Ruimin,Sam,Kaiying,etc).Thanks for being there laughing and of course staying suddenly quiet when coaches comes near,trng has been fantastic. oh man why am I talking about these? Oh-wells,I just wana say Sec4'09 you guys are FABULOUS! <3
My life evolves around acedemics and table tennis, is that wad i want?wad i hope to do well in?

i love you?

2009-02-14T06:58:00.000-08:00

Cause the possibility
That you would ever
Feel the same way About me
It's just too much Just too much
Why do I keep running From the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really Just another crush
Do you catch a breath When I look at you
Are you holding back Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin' tryin' to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away Goin' away
Are we just friends Is there more Is there more
Why do I keep running From the truth
All I ever think About is you
You got me hypnotized So mesmerized And I just got to know
Cause I'm tryin' tryin' to walk awayBut I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' awayGoin' awayGoin' away........

mediacorp

2009-02-13T08:35:00.000-08:00

Last sat,Yihui and I went mediacorp to flim a new show coz i'm from mediacorp and they needed another gal so i picked yihui,i'm so nice rite(coming out in april,must go watch!),ping pang yuan!<3>The storyline is hilarious and the fliming is crazy,esp Akira.,he joker.The qiu yuan were teaching him how to say SHOU!coz he just couldn get it rite,first he went "shoa!"then they were like damn pissed wif him after a few trys,then after somemore tries he tried "soak!"this was super funny.yihui and i laughed till our sides ache lar,omg.and after all the tiring fliming,yihui and I decided to take a few pics with the handsomes:dai yang tian and joshua.
Yihui was too frightened(or actually busy admiring his beautiful face)to ask him for permission so in the end i had to do the job.I went to ask leck hui for help then she was like 'no need scared one la aiyo,he's super nice and friendly one:)(he is,very)She whispered this in my ear and told me to say it to him,"dai yang tian, ni ke bu ke yi gen wo men pai zao"but! somehow he has some magical ears and he heard her whisper,cool rite.Futhermore, he was packing his stuff, back facing us. Then later he turned around, just when I finally mustered enough courage to ask, then he was like "wo ting dao le. hao le, xian zai ke yi pai le" T.T its damn lame, but super funny and paiseh.Here are the pics lol.

DAI YANG TIAN!<33>

jOSHUA!<3
YIHUI AND ME at the reception counter.it's prettaye.lol.

i don't know if it's a _____

2009-02-10T06:19:00.000-08:00

'My will shall shape my future.
Whether i fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own.
I am the force; I can clear any obstacles before me or i can be lost in the maze.
My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only i hold the key to my destiny'

i'm sry i've misinterpreted you.apologies!but i'm sure u still don't knoe i'm refering to you:)i really admire your talents when will i ever reach that standard ...dearest snr.i praise the lord for bringing you to my life to share my love with you:)don't leave me hanging on the wall

oh dear!

2009-01-28T04:55:00.000-08:00

wat am i to do? Having a fever at this point in time is so unexpected. Zonals are around the corner(2nd feb)and i have a temperature of 37.6. But sick or not,DEAR DEAR coaches will nv allow ME to skip trngs... so oh well,trng tmr will be as usual,with no life.as if zombies are playing since once we open our mouths to speck sth(even if relevent),"xiao gu niang,ni zai zhang cai zui ba,teng tiao hui lai de orh." oh wadever.heh.okay la hope i will still be able to concentrate in class tmr,if the fever continues,but hope not:)alrite,end off le,cya.

do u noe i meant everything i said...even if u don't understand:(

2009-01-20T04:36:00.000-08:00

i just realised tt many snrs don't like me:(wad did i do wrong again...i always make u guys angry and disappointed in me i think.wave to you in sch and u pretend u don't noe me and even whisper i-dunno-wad to ur clique.oh mann hope u at least acknowledge my existence.sry if u think i expect too much...
maybe i've fallen for u...
and i think i have..

HOPES FOR 2009!

2008-12-31T08:26:00.000-08:00

Hopes for 2009:
1)Higher GPA!
2)Improve my table tennis skills!
3)don't disappoint coaches,teachers and friends anymore
4)most importantly!Get my spinal cord straightened!And the only way is to pray to almighty God!
5)Find more true friends
6)100% fucused during trg!
7)101% fucused in class and be more hardworking!In other words no more slacking dude.
8)Get more trust from friends
9)Read the bible every free day...(will there be one?hope so)but hw still no.1 ma...wad other choice do i have mann.
well tt's about all,so lastly I HOPE TT ALL MY HOPES WILL COME TRUE!

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└┐ . .
╭┴──┤HAPPY ├╮ TO EVERYONE!
│ 牛YEAR
╰┬──╯
☆ □□/□□□□□/∴☆
2009!

sorry.

2008-12-30T06:15:00.000-08:00

Hmm,it's really hard to say this but i'm not your type,no no as in i...we're not meant to be together,i'm terribly sry,But i seriously hope that we still can be friends.Do not get difficult because of this pls.Hope u understand:(

CHINA TRIP!!!

2008-12-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

China trip was amazing!!Super fun,the girls there were young but pro!!We train for 6 hours everyday:8-11.30 in the morning and 3-5.30 in the afternoon.Training was tiring but fun coz of the fun-loving girls there.My bro,mum and I went there wif presbyterian high gals who were very jovial and nice.So here are some pics:)
The "JI HE"time when everyone has to stand at attention.The big jiejies are at the back.

The girls training ground:)(the boys one's the other half of the hall)
The hall is very big has bout 30 tables.

WU JIAO LIAN!!!(she's one fierce coach mann)

My bro,Lucas (the small one) and the act cool guy(dunno wad's name)

XIN RONG,QING YI and SHI HUI!!!(from left to right of course)

ME wif wad they call a "tuo ba" This is how they pick their balls RGTT,see how fortunate we are LOL.Then after using tt to push the balls to a corner, gotto use hands to pick.haiz.

me and the cute SHI HUI!!!<333

trying to form a heart but obviously failed to.:D

JIA HUI(the one lying on the floor),QIU XIAN(Mel calls her ban hua coz she's pretty) and Melvina(the one on the right, a sec 3 from pres high)

We ca-cauing Jia Hui to make her take a photo!:)

QING YI AND SHIHUI!!

I MISS SHIHUI!!!AND EVERYONE ELSE!I'LL LOVE U'LL FOREVER!

SO COOL!!!

2008-12-06T03:33:00.000-08:00

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

What Sherilyntan Means
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

WOW SO TRUE!!!EVERYTHING IS TRUE SIA.

i din noe i was tt hyper

2008-12-06T03:23:00.000-08:00

How Hyper Are You?
You Are 85% Hyper
You have an energy unlike any other. You're full of pep.People wonder how you are able to get so much done. You love to keep busy.It's likely that you're very physically active as well. You have a lot of physical endurance.You are also quite outgoing. You're quick to start up a conversation and make friends.You have the drive, confidence, and motivation to take you far in life.While you may tire some people out, someone else is always looking to feed off your energy.

This one is quite true

2008-12-06T03:01:00.000-08:00

The Ultimate Color Test
The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are: Energized and innovative When you are moved to act, you are: Unorthodox and idealistic When you are inspired, you are: Spontaneous and adventurous When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Light hearted and funny Your life's purpose is: To find contentment

I'm a chess?

2008-12-06T02:53:00.000-08:00

What Board Game Are You?
You Are Chess You are brilliant and shrewd. You can often predict what people will do in the future.You thrive in complex situations. You deal with contradictions well.You can have many streams of though going on at your mind at once. You keep track of things well.You are very patient. You have lots of endurance, even when your energy dwindles.

QUIZ!!!

2008-11-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

#1-The person that tagged you is?
peining:)
#2-For people who care and like you,say something to them.
Thankew for being by my side when i needed u;I LOVE U!!!
#3-Pass this quiz to 10 ppl you wish to know how they feel about.
1.Simin
2.Sylvia
3.Elisa
4.Mavis
5.Chloe Lew
6.Cheryl Tan
7.Cheechin
8.Sean
9.Xinhui
10.Amirah Small
#4-Who is number 6 having a relationship with?
Cheryl Tan;lol.i dunno how true her tale is but betta not say here later she kill me sia
#5-If number 7 and number 10 were together would that be a good thing?
Cheechin and Amirah Small;WTH!!!OMG.joke,damn funny.impossible and it will not be a gd thing.lol.
#6-What is number 2 studying about?
Sylvia;oh um,haha she's too hardworking so i have no idea.probably getting ready for next year's work.
#7-When was the last time you had a chat with number 3?
Elisa Djuhar;oh um,yesterday?
#8-What kind of music does number 8 like?
Sean;Jay Chou's songs
#9-Does number 1 have any siblings?
Simin;yes.two brothers:)
#10-Will you woo number 3?
Elisa;um,no lesbianism here so no.but she's chio:)haha
#11-How bout number 7?
Cheechin;er,no offence but no.i dun go around wooing people larr.
#12-Is number 4 single?
Mavis;um,yes.she's still young.2 years older than me only.but behind closed doors there she might have someone she likes hah.
#13-What is the surname of number 5?
Chloe;um,din i just type it there?LEW.coz she broke up wif_____.haha,awww.
#14-What is a hobby of number 10?
Amirah Small;er,i have no idea.but she's a bim so she should have an interesting hobby.lol
#15-Do number 5 and number 9 get along well?
Chloe and Xinhui;though they dun noe each other i'm sure they will get along just fine wif their similar hyperness and funness and coolness:)
#16-Where is number 2 studying at?
Sylvia;RGS of course.

#17-Where does number 9 live?
Xinhui;AMK is it?i've been ur house twice but dunno if u've moved,or i forgetten.
#18-What colour does number 4 like?
Mavis,er,i dunno.lol.she doesn tell me a thing.
#19-What is number 10 doing now?
Amirah Small,um,how would i noe?!?!

i purposely chose people who are very different.

I LOVE 102

2008-11-06T06:44:00.000-08:00

Thinking back, the past one year has gone incredibly fast. It seems just yesterday, we've been strangers, only hanging out with those we know. It seems just yesterday, we had special powers, just like batman, superman, ironman, to get to know everyone's name with just a click. It made it seemed like we've known each other for long.

I still remembered, back then during orientation,there was this day, where the switch of people between classes occurred. And we were playing this game in the shared classroom, where everyone has to do an action, which would allow the rest of the other 36 people to remember their names. Those days, i was just Sherilyn. Nothing special, prejudice about this and that, about everything around me that I dislike. And when a row of chinese names passed through my ear, imediately, I had this thought "wtf! why so many cheena kia! How the hell am I supposed to remember their names!?"lolz tt time damn joke.

There was the drama play. Tokyo & Channel. Then, I thought Amirah S. was basically a BIMBO. LOL HAHAHAH!Well she is one. The part where our PSLs thought that 1st prize belonged to us, but 104's class chair went up to take the prize, that was hilarious because we were cheering for 104, when we thought we were cheering for our class. Well, we showed sportsPERSONship didnt we? (: then the psls and pit came to our class and went,"but we heard your class being called out dint u?oppz damn paisei..." lolz jokers.

And then there was sports fest. The first sports fest we had together. And there again, there was Netball Carnival. Working together as a class, to chiong the banner + the cheers+ practise. And when we got really pissed cause we were getting all draws, and we were supposed to win! Those crazy times, where we were screaming for the balls going everywhere. PE, was the craziest. Mrs Anis the best! :D Running across the rain to the gym, Screaming at netball practice, Having fun dancing in gym, Running & Jumping like chickens at the track.haha.then a few days before net carn in the morning, the players were bored so we went to practise but it was drizzling but we din bother....then out of a sudden,i-dunno-hu yelled(loud enough for everyone to hear but soft enough for mrs anis not to hear)"oi people!mrs anis coming in our direction!quick stop!" Then we stopped and pretend nothing happened but...she caught us and said dunno wad "i noe u'll very enthu but it's raining and safety first.....blahblah."lolz.

DRAMA NIGHT WAS THE BOMB! we're a class, now and forever. Once a class, always a class, no goodbyes. The potential in all of us is never gonna fade. We won last night, we won tonight, we're winners for life. 102 - Like what Lynn said: We're a class, the class who always comes down a second before the bell rings. We're unique, we're special, what more can we be? I hate the speed of time. It just goes pass, without you knowing it. And when you start waking up, its far too late. We're a class, 7/8 bookings, yet till now, no DC.and tt's the best. "The last person turn off all lights, fans, aircorn, computer, projector etc before you leave the class!" And when we come back "Dear 102, you have been booked for not turning off your blah blah blah" "Who was the last person to leave the classroom!" -silence- "AIYA HECK LA! WE'LL HAVE FUN IN DC AS A CLASS!" We're no usual class. Even if we had 5 hrs of DC, it wont tear us apart. They're probably too scared to give us DC, cause who knows, we'd rack the entire classroom? (:lolz.

Its amazing how a class could be so extraordinarly fantabulously boisterous. Every single day is a day of laughter. Every single day is special. Every single day is unique. Every single day, a series of different crazy events occurs. We've totally become bonkers as the days go by. Sec 1, is just a stage where you are introduced to the spirit of rgs - insanity. By the end of Sec 4, WILDCATS! Every single day, awesome. There isnt a day I remember where I said "Today is so boring" Yes, there were many ups and downs, quarrels, arguments, yet our bond did not break. We got through them together, helped one another. There are still many things I wanna say, guess 'the rest is still unwritten... yeah!' Credits to Amirah S for singing in such a horrible way haha!we indeed had many conflicts,but we stood by each others side...and went thru them.
(credits to Elisa and 102's blog!i thought u wrote very well so i coped a few parts,um,actually most...thankew)

"we're a part, not apart"
Its been a great year 102, I love you guys (:
Thankew for making me who i am now.the ever optimistic and laughy Sherilyn.

we're nt exactly the earliest for assembly...pple rushing lyk mad, we? brisk-walking. lol.
kaylynn," oi sherilyn ar,late already see the time 6.24.RUN!" me"aiya still got one more minute ma.still can walk la.anw,bell also haven ring..."lolz,kaylynn says that everyday.lol sry kaylynn.haha.
we're nt exactly the cleanest class either... have u seen 103? its lyk O.O...we're nt ur nicest class oso.. hahah. i lyked it wen Amirah S. sed if we had detention we'd haf to stay overnight. LOLZ. true, true. hehe (=

BUT!!!
i tink we're perfect the way we are...
"We're a part, not apart"
"Unity in Diversity"
"Sisters at Heart"
I LOVE YOU 102!!! I Cant imagine life w/o u!

OMG

2008-10-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

i'm utterly disappointed wif myself.now then i realised how WELL i play.omg.losing to Lydia?!?!wad...was leading 2-0 can.then lost 3-2.walao eh.shit...urgh now i can't even get a new phone.missed a freaking chance...
i seriously admire sam(samantha)she is like so sick and felt like vomitting but she still got into top 8....and pat(patricia)too.she just recovered from i dunno wad(i heard)and she won yixuan.shitz.when will i ever be like them...

2008-10-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

A: hott
B: loves people
C: great friend
D: cute
E: has gorgeous eyes
F: wild and crazy adore you
G: easy to fall in love with
H: crazy
I: good boyfriend or girlfriend
J: is really sweet
K: can kick ur ass
L: good kisser
M: can be funny
N: very good kisser
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P: popular with all types of people
Q: has a smile to die for
R: loves to laugh and smile
S: makes people laugh
T: is very awsome
U: is very sexual
V: not judgmentalA: hott
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: is loved by everyone
Z: makes dating fun

S:makes people laugh
H:crazy
E:has gorgeous eyes
R:loves to laugh and smile
I:good boyfriend or girlfriend
L:good kisser
Y:is loved by everyone
N:very good kisser

T:is very awsome
A:hott
N:very good kisser

i wanted to try but i realised it's so disgusting...ew.wat's with the very good kisser.though some discriptions may be rite like the laughing thing and the love to laugh...hehe

crap,all crap

2008-10-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

um,since people has been bugging me to update.i shall,but i have no idea bout wat so to post bout.okay,the worst thing ever...EOYs.and even better the results.
urm i failed my geog.wtf,i hate geog.i passed my history!yay,yihui see this,i got 2.8 n i'm satisfied already.blah shows how lousy i am la.got either 2.4 or 2.8 for eng,coz i failed my compre...again,screw the compres.chinese compo got 38/50(-2 for cuo bie zi) and paper got 72.5.i made 20 marks of careless mistakes,fantastic rite beat this.crap.could have gotten 4.0 but then leh?3.6 urgh.then now the best,maths.so far i have been getting 4.0 for all the maths papers and i thought tt maths was my only hope but...i only scored 28/50,2.4.so pathetic,then now maths overall got pulled down,to 3.6 aaaaaaarrrrrrr.so pissed wif the stupid questions so idotic.then bio.studied so freaking hard and wat the hell came back?nonsense.3.2.walao.i thought for the hard work...nvm.and the lit.so lan.haiz,2.8.so overall?i dun want to see the shit of paper.

HAIZ...

2008-10-11T06:11:00.000-07:00

I'm worried.Wad if all these hard work i had put in for EYAs all gone down the drain? Will i achieve what i want in the end?What if i dont get what i wanted? Is it worth it to study so hard, so hard for just one week n a day of EYAs, wasting so many papers to do revision, killing so many trees,killing my com, wasting my time i have compromised for my sleep?I have gave up on my studies. Of all that i have done, is it worth it?Or did i just not work hard enough?i THOUGHT i did.
i screwed my maths up.damn it.i screwed the subject which i placed all my hopes on.wat's gonna become of me?urgh.i hate it.why can't i be as smart as the rest of them...i hate myself;a lot

SATISFIED;D

2008-09-19T05:32:00.000-07:00

i'm finally satisfied wif my current results.u might think it's not very good for for me i'm qute proud already:Dso here it is:
maths:4.0,4.0(coz got two exams)
bio spa:3.6(shitz one more mark to 4.0)
geog:3.2(bloody hell,i not good at this sub)
chinese:3.6(oral)2.8(compo)OMG!se bei lan!!!urgh.
still got more results comin...i hope i do well.pray for me.haha,JK.(but if u wan i dun mind)
BYE READERS<3cya.loves.

something's wrong

2008-09-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder if i really am tt hateful.its very obvious when at first u were closer to me n now u just say we r friends n no closer than tt...how can friendship be lost so easily???why why why?why must it go this way?God made friends to make each other happy not sad or left out...i wonder are friends really tt helpful?R seniors tt nice?

HURRAY!!!

2008-09-02T06:47:00.000-07:00

yeepee!!Congrats to SIMIN,HAI QING,PATRICIA N ME of course...hehe.We have gotten into the Quarter-finals!!!whee...i'm playing wif pat...o.o.i'm scared coz in terms of table-tennis skills she is better but i'll try my best!!must train real hard for the match on saturday!!!so a few days ago,i bet a girl from Gan Eng Seng,a girl from S.T (i dunno wat)..2 girls from my pri sch but their sec 2s la,S.T NICK"S!!!n i won them all...feel so pai seh to bet my ex-seniors but haha...wat else can i do?say sorry?okay then sry lor...hehe,i noe i'm evil...then just a few hours ago,before trg,i played the "top 16 round"match,n won Zi Xin,my very own batchmate,3-0!!!yupps,n simin plazed superblz well today!!!She bet Lydia from st nicks too,my ex-senior,n she is like damn pro can.haha...on sat she is playing wif Haiqing my dearest senior!!!o.o jia you to both of u!!!hehe,n all the best pat...i have nothing more to say since i m playing wif u on sat.
n yes yes!!!Oscar played very well today too!!!he bet the cat!!!(Ji Kiat)(i think this is the spelling)haha...n jia youus to my beloved brother Lucas who appeared in the newspaper a few days ago n his picture covered one whole page la!!!haha...cool...n of course my nice name too...hehe.
oh thankew very much simin...but i still got loads to ask u...haha..but thankew larrs.haha.
okay shall end of now,bye peeps.

2008-08-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

From the very Beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background,& that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence. After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The girl agreed, & with the guy'sdetermination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice...... The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying.... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him. A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. n The girl finally smiled.
this is another great story!!!so nice...

LOVE IS LOVE

2008-08-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

A love has no reason
Once a lady when having a conversation with her lover, asked:
Lady : Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady : You can't even tell me the reason.. how can you say you like me?How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I loveU.
Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok..ok!!! Emmmmm..because you are beautiful,because your voice is sweet,because you are caring,because you are loving,because you are thoughtful,because of your smile,because of your every movements.
The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer..
Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went incomma.
The Guy then placed aletter by her side, and here is the content:
Darling,Because of your sweet voice that I love you..Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile,because of your every movements that I love you..Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you..
If love needs a reason, like now,There is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Does love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you..

This is SUPERB story right? ^^

argh...

2008-08-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

something's wrong wif me i can't do things properly....as in wat is wrong wif my table tennis skills...why???why can't i improve instead of conting deproving???haiz...
oh ya rgtt gurls,i apologise for being so emo tt day...i din expect it to turn out so bad...just can't control my emotions anymore...emoness got the better of me...somehow
Chloe u damn funny leh say wat only sec 2 then can start emoing...lolz.although i think it's kinda funny now, i din laugh or even smile tt day or yesterday...(it seemed so long ago)sorry...

life is sad...

2008-07-28T02:49:00.000-07:00

i too realised tt i sucked at everything i do...so i should i face all these n cont life as it is...why m i so dao mei...haiz...

2008-07-28T02:36:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wish, that if i could start life all over again, would i choose this same path? since the day i was born, i bet i had wished i wasnt in this world. if right from the start when i was in kindergarten, if i had not been in modeling, but chose other sports instead would my life now be better? if i had not gone to st nick's and had gone to other schs like ai tong for instance,would i be happier now? if i had not choosen table tennis all over again, or if i had insisted to cont modeling would i feel better? if only i had nt join table tennis in pri 3... i bet my life would be 100 times better now. if i had taken badminton would i hv a better life now?i have lost interest in table tennis already...i dun see the point conting... if only life was a time turner and whenever you feel you've made a wrong decision you could go back and correct it, if only these were true, life would be so much better... i suppose this is a rather unforgiving world cos everytime i realise i made a wrong decision it dosent allow me to make another one to correct it, instead i hv to live with it and live through it for 4 long years torturing myself again and again. i really wished i had followed my parents and quit TT...shit...now i no longer noe where i m or which direction i m goin...TT looks like no future for me,how should i cont life???

hmmm...

2008-07-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY B'DAE CHLOE!wheee,i forgot to pass u ur letter for 5 days already....betta remember tmrw...but will one la coz got the present to pei wif ma...haha.
oh ya n yesterday was MY B'DAE!!!i gotto continue my history pt...

haha...

2008-07-20T08:11:00.000-07:00

TMRW IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY TO ME...HAHA,ONLY TRUE FRIENDS WILL NOE...I'LL TELL U PEOPLE WHY TMRW...WHEE...:)

stupid pts...

2008-07-20T08:06:00.000-07:00

yay!stupid PTs finally done...no not very actually...still left history PT...haiz...but i still must celebrate for i have finished 2 of those things.lit done.bio done.HISTORY....halfway...:(but nevermind.still got a few more days...must jiaa jouus!!!:)

This is cool,watch it

2008-07-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

i'm proud to have such talented friends...watch this video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqnNLIa4x9k.it's real cool.but yilin very funny,n vivien is cute...haha N this is another cute video...Charlie bit my finger:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqnNLIa4x9k,my class laughed so hard when they saw this...have a great time!!!

Happy Youth Day To All...

2008-07-07T05:21:00.000-07:00

hello hello.i just wrote like 7 letters at one go...so cool rite...n is not owe them whereas is the opposite but i still decided to write lorr see so kind rite.hahas.okay,tmrw's be yourself day...the more i say it the weirder it sounds,i dunno wat to wear...but dun u think its weird...can wear anything but still gotto wear sch shoes n everything else rite?or at least i think so...haha,n ar at crabby call me 4 no reason...(as if i never)haha.end liao la,also got nothing to say...

This world is weird...

2008-07-06T07:15:00.000-07:00

this is so cool...the last post i was complaining bout hanzhen...now i'm doin the history PT wif her!wat a world!okay,but she was'nice' enough to help us go to the library to look for related books n found a very amazing number of books which i appreciated very much....well she found 1 book!haha,no larrs JJ,she was nice indeed.well,i am looking 4 some information about the Mayan civilisation....can anyone help us???if u have any books regarding the Mayan civilisation,pls pass to me in 102 on tuesday morning...thankew.wow,so formal!

HANZHEN THIS IS 4 U!!!

2008-07-03T07:10:00.000-07:00

oi,i do not crush her okay.i dunno wat is goin on in ur bloody sick mind but i seriously am gonna **** u if u ever tell anyone else.n weilin too.i dun care anymore kay.this is pissing me off.

THIS IS SPECIALLY 4 CHLOE!!!

2008-07-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

hellos Chloe,i dunno if u would see this but yupps.Dun get too stressed up,take some time to relax.I dun wanna have such a sad n depressed senior who has always been so nice to me.Stay happy Chloe n i'll love u forever.dun give up no matter wat.Jia Youus,i have faith in u!muaks!love u forever no matter wat happens...... with lots of love,Sherilyn.

hello everyone!!!

2008-06-29T19:40:00.000-07:00

This time i'm not wasting time coz i'm at ICT lesson!!!muahaha.but i still gotto continuouisly turn back,to check if teacher behind. "HELLO! i am sherilyn's friend! WOOHOOO! BLAHBLAHBLAH! BYEBYE! ;DDDD"quoted from my friend...she just popped in front of me n i thought it was teacher la,haizZ.hmm,dunno wat to say now leh... hahahaahahaa. im back again! wheeeeeeeee. sherilyn says im crazy-.- she evil laaa. uhhhhhhhhhh.wateva juleen...she came back lor.i just posted yesterday...n now i'm posting crap again yay!shall end!

sorry people!!!

2008-06-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

hello everyone!Sorry 4 not posting 4 quite a while...i was just busy lar.I realised tt if i wanna do sth properly,i have to abandon another thing,so now the problem is tt it is 9.42pm on sunday n i haven completed my hw,actually haven really started.HaizZ.i shouldn be posting now since i haven even bathed yet after training but after all the persuations,i decided to post...hmmm...okay i shall listen to weizhen n talk about the Talent Vogue!um,yupp as expected,it was hilarious,but some parts was just singing which is actually some gals showing their talents.The singing was not bad especially the duet sang by hanis n um,so was told,hadley's dunno wat cap.(i think)but weizhen n i still voted 4 the extremely funny basketballers,they named themselves pussy sth,i cant remember.but they,including hadley's cap!!!,really made the audience's laugh till their sides hurt...haha.just thinking bout their moves make me LOL.hmmm,i think tt's all la but weizhen will say more i think i just have no time...okays,bye 4 now.toodles!!!

I LOVE U YI HUI!!!

2008-06-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

thankew thankew Yi Hui!!!i love u!u r forva the best...ya the blog suits me just rite dude,hahas.um,creating a blog may be easy 4 many but not 4 me,so i still need wonderful seniors by my side...erm,wat else should i say...oh ya people,mustmustmust tag on my tagboard,i wouldn wan it to be dead just after i (or yi hui) created it.hahas,okay,i shall end my post...bye people.yay!this is fun!

2008-06-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

THIS POST SHALL BE POSTED BY ME, THE ONE THAT CREATED THIS BLOG XD haha. OK, ANW TMR RMB TO BRING WHITE JERSEY FOR PHOTO TAKING. THAT'S ALL I'M GONNA SAY. ok bye sherilyn :D thanks for letting me post. or rather i jus posted it myself. haha. ok, bye <3333333333333333333333>

2008-06-18T05:20:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone,i am just trying to post something so yupps...just wanna say WELCOME 4 de moment:)